No More Numbers
I’m ditching the numbers from now on. If I want to change my life, I can’t count the days; I must live. It honestly causes one to not be present in the moment. That is something that I truly want to change. Being present in the moment is so important to many aspects of life. I can’t even begin to tell you how I’ve worried about the past and the future. Neither one exists if you want to be real about it. The only thing that exists is now! So, I need to focus on my current surroundings and situations.
My goal is to always bring myself back to now when I think about the past or future. To do that, I am thinking of doing some deep breathing, focusing on my senses, and doing some activity. I think it would snap me back into reality. The most important thing is changing my mind. By doing this, I can change my now, if that makes sense. The mind is so important in any situation, and I want to take advantage of that. Not only to change my health, but also in various areas of my life.
What do I want to change? To start, I want to change how I feel about myself. I want to apply my inner feelings that I know about myself to the outside. I also want to improve my finances, living conditions, and relationships. Really, my entire life. I was meant to have better and really be better. Growing up, I knew I had some type of purpose. But over time, certain people had come into my life and did their best to put me down and destroy my self-concept before it even started. I realized recently that anytime I think of myself or interact with others, I am always the one being used and abused. I can never accept help, love, or any type of appreciation without feeling bad or like I don’t deserve it. From now on, I will not be taken advantage of. I will accept help, love, and gifts with glee! Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love to give and will always do so cheerfully as I have. This time, I won’t do it for people who don’t deserve it, and I will pay more attention to my intuition. I know God will lead me to the right people and situations to give to.
As far as my views on my life. I really believe I should be living a life of luxury. It is my destiny to be able to have more than enough and be overflowing with goodness in every aspect of my life, not just money. Wealth can be in anything. To have that life, I need to act like I already have it. So, I am going to change my purse into the Coach bag that I bought. It is a luxury and makes me feel special. It will also wear better clothing, keep my hair and nails done, and eat like someone who lives in luxury. I am not the type of person who cares about being flashy. I think I want to focus more on the quality of things. Usually, that means long-lasting and increases the frequency of things. When your frequency increases, you start aligning with the best version of yourself.
I will talk about this more in another post. For now, this is what I’ve been thinking about.